A little history - Jen's view

- Whenever I (Jen) post on the blog, it will be in green. -

Drew and I started trying to have children a year and a half ago, in October 2004. When you're trying to have a baby, a year and a half feels like a long time. In January 2005, we found out that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). We went through several fertility treatments, nothing happened. We decided to take a break & wait. We were waiting for God to provide somehow: $ for another treatment cycle, $ for adoption, or even conception. During the treatment we had in January (IUI, if you're curious) I really felt like I heard God ask me to "Believe" Him for a baby. I didn't know if that meant adoption or conception, but I heard, nonetheless. After that treatment didn't work (which was terribly difficult), I realized that what I hoped for more than anything, was for God to do this baby thing in a way that would give most honor to Him. In the course of the first months of this year about ten (yeah 10!) of my close friends found out they were pregnant! Whew. A lot to take when you hope to join them so badly.
In late April, I began having a really hard time being around mothers and children. I actually began to feel angry toward them and super-distant. Especially at church - I just wanted to bolt as soon as the service was over!
Then (not a week later) I saw that my chart (I had been keeping track of my basal body temperature) was looking really promising. But, I was feeling sick - a cough, not nausea - so I thought maybe I had a fever. And I'd pulled some really late nights, given that it was the end of the semester, so mabye that's why my temps were high. For everything that looked good, I had a reason that it might be wrong.
Well, you've read Drew's post about how we came to take the test; but what do you know? We're pregnant! We're thrilled. And we feel like that God really did do this in a way that honors Him. We're so thankful.